YAY FOR NEWS!!

Little Bug's heartbeat was at a rate of 160 bpm!  And we've found out that I am 12 weeks along!  This news was so exciting to find out.  I wasn't even that excited going into the doctors office.  However, when they showed me my little Bug in there with his/her heart beating ever so sweetly, I can't even tell you how fast the tears came.  It's funny because I thought my heart was completely broken after an incident in Pittsburgh, where a guy broke my heart for sex and drugs.  But, when I saw my little baby up on that screen, the tears came and I realized that I have never and will never love anyone or anything as much as I do my little Bug!

However, ladies, let me just say that the internal vaginal sonogram they performed on me was NOT pleasant or expected whatsoever!  I didn't even know they had a sonogram that looked at your baby from within you!  Let me just tell you how nervous I got when that doctor pulled out a long thin white shaft and decided to squirt the blue jelly on top like a miniature blue poo!  I didn't have ANY idea what was about to happen to me.  Not only did the doctor make me feel a bit embarrassed when she had to explain to me what it was, but she made me go pink in the cheeks once again when she stuck it under my sheet and said, "Please position this and you'll feel some pressure."  I ALMOST DIED LAUGHING.  As you can already tell, I'm quite immature when it comes to sex.  However, I feel that if you can't laugh at sex, then you'll never feel truly comfortable with it.  Plus, its a lot more fun if you don't feel embarrassed all the time.

Instead of getting embarrassed because you like weird things, you should make a big deal out of it.  If you like biting, and your man looks a little weirded out when you decide to do it, just freak out on him (in a funny manor) and bite him everywhere within 20 seconds.  It'll either tickle him enough to make him laugh, or you'll humor him by acting like a kitten biting on their playmates.  Works every time; ask anyone.

Just A Little Info On The Prego =]

I don't have my real name listed on either of my Google or Blogger accounts. This is for the safety of myself and my soon to be newborn baby. I do have my AIM screen name listed in case you would like to speak with me, and my email if you would like to ask me any questions. However, I'd prefer if anyone who would want to ask me anything or give me tips, to please do it on here.

I don't know how far along I am in my pregnancy yet. I will find that information out on November 17th. So, look forward to a blog post on that day. =]

I know what you're already wondering. Yes, I am only 19. Yes, I feel I am ready for this baby - not exactly fully prepared for the baby's arrival, but definitely ready to love it and do everything and anything I have to in order to make sure he/she has the best life possible. Yes, I'm still with the father of the baby. I plan on trying to make sure that even if we can't be together forever, we can stand each other enough to be able to raise a child together. No, I don't have a college degree, or a steady job. No, I'm not currently in college - however, I plan to try to get into Penn State Online schooling as soon as I possibly can. I previously worked at a Halloween store, but it closed just a few days ago for the season. So, yes, I'm currently out of a job. Yes, I will continue looking for a new job until I find one.

Now that we have that all straightened out, I'm going to end this post, and create a new post where I start actually talking about mothering and other things of that sort. Feedback on any of my posts is appreciated as long as it is appropriate.

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